Monday, April 25, 2011

Changes Need to be Made

I'm warning you now this I'm not going to be a normal post.  I'm not going to delve too far into issues but I feel like I need to vent and get this out at least for myself since it is a weight loss blog after all.

I haven't been doing well with my diet.  I have also noticed that I'm tired lately.  Always tired.  I am very sedentary and I don't exercise anymore.  I feel like I don't give a damn anymore.  I know I can do this, I've done fairly well in the past, but for some reason, after the first few days of the week I get into the "f it" mentality where I just say, eat whatever you can possibly get into your mouth until Tuesday.

Growing up there were many things in my life that made me extremely insecure with myself most of it being from school, but that's another story.  So I'm not used to feeling good about myself and I know I'm the only one that can change that and since moving up to Sacramento, I've been much better at that, but lately I've seem to have gone downhill.

I know if I lose weight and exercise more I'll get more energy but every day at lunch I want to go into our private room at work and sleep.  I want nothing more than to go take a nap and if you know me, you know that I NEVER used to take naps.

Something in me needs to change.  I know I have a food addiction, and I love Weight Watchers, but I need help.  I need more help then that.  I don't want people thinking this is me feeling sorry for myself.  It's more venting then anything, but if anyone has any advise, I could sure use some.  I just don't know what to do anymore.  I'm worried about how tired I've been, and I'm worried about not getting control of my weight. 

Also, I'm damn lonely.  I have work friends, but I don't have any social life outside of work.  If I do go out somewhere, it's with my aunt and her friends.  I'm not putting them down because I love them, but I need people my own age to hang out with.  People tell me to take a class or join a group or something, but I'm having a really hard time finding something like that here too. 

Okay, I'm done with my pity party. But really, if you have any advise, I'd love to hear it.

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