Friday, May 6, 2011

New Blog Site

Hey to those few people who read my blog (does anyone read my blog???), I have moved over to wordpress.  If you'd like to come by my new blog link is here Losing It!


Monday, April 25, 2011

Changes Need to be Made

I'm warning you now this I'm not going to be a normal post.  I'm not going to delve too far into issues but I feel like I need to vent and get this out at least for myself since it is a weight loss blog after all.

I haven't been doing well with my diet.  I have also noticed that I'm tired lately.  Always tired.  I am very sedentary and I don't exercise anymore.  I feel like I don't give a damn anymore.  I know I can do this, I've done fairly well in the past, but for some reason, after the first few days of the week I get into the "f it" mentality where I just say, eat whatever you can possibly get into your mouth until Tuesday.

Growing up there were many things in my life that made me extremely insecure with myself most of it being from school, but that's another story.  So I'm not used to feeling good about myself and I know I'm the only one that can change that and since moving up to Sacramento, I've been much better at that, but lately I've seem to have gone downhill.

I know if I lose weight and exercise more I'll get more energy but every day at lunch I want to go into our private room at work and sleep.  I want nothing more than to go take a nap and if you know me, you know that I NEVER used to take naps.

Something in me needs to change.  I know I have a food addiction, and I love Weight Watchers, but I need help.  I need more help then that.  I don't want people thinking this is me feeling sorry for myself.  It's more venting then anything, but if anyone has any advise, I could sure use some.  I just don't know what to do anymore.  I'm worried about how tired I've been, and I'm worried about not getting control of my weight. 

Also, I'm damn lonely.  I have work friends, but I don't have any social life outside of work.  If I do go out somewhere, it's with my aunt and her friends.  I'm not putting them down because I love them, but I need people my own age to hang out with.  People tell me to take a class or join a group or something, but I'm having a really hard time finding something like that here too. 

Okay, I'm done with my pity party. But really, if you have any advise, I'd love to hear it.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

TJ's Shopping Trip

I had my bimonthly appointment today and my bimonthly trip to TJ's.  I got some essentials and the ingredients to make this Sausage and Bean recipe I saw on Extra Virgin.  It was good and I'll post the recipe at the bottom. (no pictures yet though... Sorry!)

At lunch today I went with a friend from work to Black Bear Diner and had their granola pancakes.
  You get three HUGE pancakes!  I ate 2 of them and was stuffed!  I saved the third for tomorrow.

Okay that's it for the day.  Short and sweet!

Casual Day

We got a casual day at work today so it was nice to be able to have 2 "jeans days" as we call them.  I had my yearly review at work and I'm glad it's over with!  It wasn't bad, I just get stressed with those things.  I worked on starting to organize here at work and set up a system for my various projects.  I like organizing, but when something is a huge mess (not at work, this is more for my room) it's too overwhelming to me and I have so much crap that I don't have places to put everything!  I have my entire life in one bedroom...

Anyway, when I got home I started roasting some carrots and a half of a fennel bulb.

It tossed them with 2 teaspoons olive oil, salt, red pepper flakes, and black pepper.  I roasted it in the oven at 400 but I may try 450 next time to get them a little darker.  I cooked it for around 30 minutes but I don't know for sure because the timer battery kept dying and never ended up buzzing!  Oh well!

This picture is of the vegetables raw.  I am not a fan of black licorice but I like a mild licorice flavor in something like this with the fennel or in biscotti with anise in it but I still can't get into the strong flavor of licorice itself...

Okay, time to get to cleaning up!  My mom and Nick are coming up for Easter tomorrow!

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Greens and Beans...

Tonight we are had our neighbors over for dinner and my aunt is making a specialty of my Grandfather's called Greens and Beans.  It's soup with savoy cabbage, canellini beans, and a ton of garlic (she used a head and 1/2!).  The whole front of the house smelled like garlic this morning!  The smell of the soup cooking reminded me of when my grandfather would make ham hocks and cabbage which was really the only dish I remember of his.

Unfortunately I don't remember my grandparents' food.  They passed away when I was 5 and 7 but I have heard many a tale of their fabulous feasts.  My aunt and dad told me about the platters they used to eat off of.  Yes EAT off of.  My grandfather had to build a special table in their garage because there wasn't enough room in the house.  That's being Italian for ya! 
My aunt made the lemon pie that was passed out at Weight Watchers a few weeks back and it was INCREDIBLE!!!!  I'd actually like it without the crust to make a puddingy/custardy dessert...  Our neighbors brought cake too and I had a small piece of that.
 I missed Weight Watchers which was for personal reasons that I won't go into. We managed to watch a few minutes of the Giants game before they got here too.

I was beat by the time they left so I'm off to bed!

Monday, April 18, 2011

Back to the Grind

Had another pretty uneventful day...  I did talk to my mom and there was a 3.something earthquake in the bay area!  It's mild but it happened on the anniversary of the San Francisco 1906 earthquake.  Eerie!

I have had Disneyland on my mind for the bulk of the day.  We're only a little over a month away from our vacation and I'm so excited!  You'd think I'm going to Italy or something!  Don't get me wrong, I'd like to go to pretty much anywhere in Europe.  I started making the Disneyland play list for our trip.  I got the songs I wanted added (trust me, I have hundreds of Disney/Disneyland songs on my iPod, which goes without saying I'm sure!) now I just need to organize it how I want it and add/delete to the final play list.  That'll be one thing out of the way.  I need to make a list of everything I need/plan to do before the trip.

Speaking of Italy, I was watching Extra Virgin on the cooking channel and I am really liking this show.  I feel connected to most Italian cooking shows.  They made this dish with turkey sausages, cherry tomatoes (they're cooked, for those of you know me, I HATE raw tomatoes) garlic, cannelini beans, bay leaves, salt, and red pepper flakes.  It looks heavenly!  They also made this light orange cake that looked fantastic, and I think those will be my next recipes!  I'm going to Nugget tomorrow and TJ's on Wednesday and I'm definitely getting the ingredients at least for the sausage and beans.  Don't worry, I'll take pictures and post the recipe here when I make it.

Okay, I'm getting hungry!  Time for bed!

Weekend Shenanigans

I'm just going to go ahead and lump the weekend into one post. 

Saturday we got a late start, we were planning on going to the Earth Day fair at the city hall where my mom lives but we didn't get out until after it closed down!  Oh well, next year!  So we headed off to the mall to relive our high school days.  We just went through a few stores including Cost Plus, Hot Topic, and Torrid (where I went nuts!)

I got a white button up top, a set of bracelets, 2 sets of earrings, and a ring (Jean got a matching ring!) and 1/2 of that stuff of on clearance.  And when I mean I went nut there, I didn't used to like Torrid that much, but their clothes have gotten cuter to me...  I like the fact that they have actual good looking clothes for overweight people.  What a freeking concept!!!  I tried on a couple of dresses and a pair of jeans I liked too but didn't get them because I'm trying to set a budget and I'm still not sure about dresses on me.  Maybe I'll like them when I'm 50 pounds lighter then I am now.

When we finished up in the mall, we were planning on going to my favorite Chinese restaurant but Jean wasn't feeling all that well, so we stayed at the apartment while my mom and Nick went to get a burger at a local restaurant and they just brought us something back.  She also picked up Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 for me since I was planning on getting it and we watched it that night.

Sunday, we went to Pasta Pomodoro for lunch. I got chicken Marsala pasta and it came with minestrone soup. It was all really good.  I ate about 1/2 of the pasta because it was rich and the soup helped fill me up too.

After that we went to Stanford Shopping Center and walked around a little there.  I got some make up from Benefit, then we walked over to Pottery Barn and you have to walk around Abercrombie and Fitch in order to get there so as I'm walking towards Abercrombie, Jean is going Shannon what are you doing?!  Shannon!  Stop! Shannon!!!  Stop! Then I turned by it and she had this look of relief on her face.  It was quite hilarious!  We HATE that store!

Anyway, once we were done in the mall, we went back to the apartment, packed up our stuff, rested a bit, then left to go back to our homes.  All in all it was a great weekend!  It was so nice to see our friends after all that time!  We have decided since Jean lives closer to me now, we'll get together more often.  And whenever she can get to the bay area, I'll bring her down so we can both get a chance to socialize.  We are both not very strong in that department, and until I find friends here (at least out of work) I'm going to try to get together with them more often!